::forever yours::

2005-05-13T09:43:00.001+08:00

Woohoo... I'm in such a good mood today. Surprising, hey? Yeaaa...

2005-05-02T13:34:00.000+08:00

Study period again. Everyone seems to be studying, but here I am, blogging in attempt to escape the reality that exams are gonna be here in 3 weeks. Dead screwed aren't I? I have 5 tests next week and to add on to that, I won't be having any time to study during the weekends cos of the history seminar, and 2 piano thingos. Well, maybe I'll not attend the one on Sunday, so that I can take time out and do some study.

Anyhow... How unlucky can I get? When something important comes up, I'll make a mess of it. Take the rehearsal on Wednesday for example... Like why do I have to hurt my third finger now?! That is so unfair!

2005-04-29T14:50:00.000+08:00

I'm crazy with excitement cos today while mum was driving us to school, I heard Lang Lang playing Liszt's Libenstraum over the radio. It was so beautiful. ^^ How I wish I can hear it over and over again! I'm so gonna get his CDs and his performances on DVD.

Anyway, today we had RE and see, we had to do this life statement thing. And yes, as you guessed. I didn't do it. No, I correct myself, I didn't end up doing it (Alexis did) but I did attempt to do it last night. I took like 45 mins or so but still, I couldn't write anything! So anyway, Alexis ended up doing it for me this morning before school. And although it was incomplete, credit must go to my dear sister for helping me. (I didn't even bother to read what she wrote so I pray that nothing outrageous was sprawled over the page). But who cares? Its not even graded.

I received the ball photos today. They were fab! But I only bought 2 cos I thought I looked really bad. *_*

I have a flute lesson after school today. I haven't been practicing! Help! Jo said that we could change the Paganini study to another one if I worked on the old one this week (which i didn't). Uh oh. And what am I doing here blogging when I should be practicing? ...

2005-02-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Xuan laughed at me.

After tute, Yen and I merrily set off to the cafe together with Xuan.

"Wait for me in the cafe."

And that was exactly what we did. Well, not exactly... I was about to leave the cafe after collecting my much-awaited lunch, when Yen politely reminded me that we had to wait for her. And so, both of us sat down and started to eat. I pulled my grilled chicken pasta salad out of the white lunch bag, removed the plastic lid and reached into the bag to grab a fork... and then dear old Xuan came along. I looked up, and then started to pack, as we had to go someplace else.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!"

Her face went red and she couldn't stop shaking from laughter.

"What the......?"

I mean, everyone, EVERYONE, laughs at me.

Is it them, or is it just me?

2005-02-08T14:53:00.000+08:00

I am currently having a terrible migrane. Hmm.... maybe the meningeal layer under my very cerebral cortex is swelling up. I wonder.

2005-01-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

Ouch... my wrist hurts. And my pinky still hurts as well. I think I can't do much practise these few days. Mum just came back this afternoon with Ben. She's quite disappointed that I haven't done much Yr 12 work. Oh well... I guess I really have to get some work done these days.

Dad's arriving soon. Gonna pick him up later... ((:

2005-01-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

Ah! I finally get a chance to blog. I practised Grieg until my right pinky started to hurt. I think I cut my fingernail too short so it sort of split. It really hurts, I like get this burning sensation when I press on the keys. I hope it goes away soon, cos I really need to practise that piece!

Mum's coming back on Friday. Holidays would officially be over then. Lolx. I've already started on Yr 12 work anyway.

2005-01-08T20:46:00.001+08:00

My blog is finally alive. Whee...

Yesterday, I did my driving prac... and i passed. I am so over the moon about it. Can't wait to finish the log book and sit the hazard test. If all goes well, I'll be able to drive by myself when I turn 17. Boy, I really can't wait!

However, today was quite a terrible day. Had this misunderstanding with this anonymous person and she's sort of pointing the finger at me. I mean, what the fuck? Can you please, please... leave me alone?! Do you know that its the second time that you are doing this to me in the short time span of a month. I finally know who you truly can be... I really can't believe that you did this to me. You are so immature. I hate you for that! I'm never going to look at you in the same way I did last time again! I am so fuckin pissed off. I really don't care what it takes to solve the misunderstanding, but this is going to be the last time you point the finger at me!

Things at home have not been good either. I'm supposed to start Year 12 work (because mummy told me to) and I haven't really done anything yet. I don't even know how to start... like I don't know which topics to start on. And the worst thing is that she expects me to have already planned timetable ("... because your TEE is in November..." blah blah blah) I'm in such big shit. Plus, I lied to her that I have already started on some of the work.

I haven't really done much prac either. I haven't touched the flute for ages... But anway, that's not that important for the time being. The thing is, I really have to get started with my concerto. I've kinda abandoned it for some time now. Gosh, I really wonder if I will eventually be able to play the whole piece. Plus, I also have to make sure I can memorise the 5 pieces that I will have to play for Mr Lee. I really hope he can take me in. Mrs Symons is really nice and encouraging but she doesn't really push me much. I'm really sure that with Mr Lee, I can do so much better.

Mum has already been gone for 1 week now. Another week left for me to do some catching up...

2005-01-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the year 2005. Rachel is currrently in Year 12 and she has to study her arse off because mum said, "Rachel.... I don't expect much from you, I just want As, that's all." Plus, she has to handle an extra load of music for her piano exams as well as her concerto night. Rachel has made big plans for herself in the future! Anyway, she is also very excited about this year as she has a ball to attend. But its just kinda sad that her mum is not very supportive, oh well... Screw it, what's done is done, she's already got the ball gown anyway. No one can change her mind about it now.

School's gonna commence soon, and Rachel can't wait. She's so bored she wants to goes to school. See, someone has no life... What a sad ass loser!

2004-11-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

I finally have something to be proud of. Okay, I seriously hope that I don't get stage fright later...

2004-11-04T08:14:00.000+08:00

There are so may things I want to say, but I really don't know how to put everything down in the right words. I've just decided to come here to vent all my anger, frustration, and sadness.

There will certainly be a day where I have no more tears left. I am seriously, so sick of this. Everyday, I will think about the stuff that has been going on for the past few years and all that fills me, is this strange emptiness. Why? I really don't know. I just hope that I'll find the answer to all these one day.

To all those people in my life that have been my comfort and strength, I thank you. And to all those people who have obstructed my path, I will do everything to move on.

2004-11-03T13:10:00.000+08:00

Whoa.... I haven't blogged in a really long time.

Just got back from the zoo. Yes, it was a very, very "enriching" experience. HA. Lexy is probably getting her kit today, after school. There goes the peace and quiet at home. No.... wait.... the word "peace" doesn't een exist in the first place. Not when Lexy's at home anyway...

2004-07-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

I feel so fat... couldn't get up from my seat after the heavy meal of steamboat...

2004-07-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

Today is a happy day...

Woke up to an extremely sore mouth... Teeth aching so badly. Anyway, went to Yicha to rent a piano to practice. Cost quite a lot of money. I thought that it was too expensive for the quality of the piano I used. Then went to Parkway (again). Bought so much makeup there. And then dad came and dropped me off at TK.

OMG. I was so happy even before I reached the skool. Walked to Gramercy to look for sheet music. Its so much cheaper here... Yep.. and then walked to TK. Waited there for a bit. Saw Weilin first. She looks the same. I ran there and hugged her and she had no clue who I was until a few seconds later... haha, she was like, "OH! Rachel!" So sad that she couldn't go out today. Then Mandy came along. She looks so different-- short hair and bangs... Yeah, but its a good change. We went to look for Ms Lui. She attempted to go... "Hoi Hoi", yeps. Ms Lui gave me a hug. Mandy predicted the right thing...

We went to Caltex for Mandy to get changed. Saw a couple of other ex-classmates along the way. We ate mian (not the orange one... so sad tt it was closed) then off to Orchard.

I am extremely embarrased over my loss of sense of direction. Yeah... I felt like an idiot. Both of us bought the same top from Topshop. It was a good buy... Walked around for a bit. Mandy had this crazy ermmm... want? to buy a rah rah skirt. We went to warehouse to look and we found this really nice black one. Too bad it was too expensive. I would have bought it. Yeps... and alos, mum bought me a pair of loop diamond earrings.

Had such a great time today. Too bad I had to go home early and my legs were aching so badly. Had real good laughs with Mandy today. Can't wait to go out again. Hope that Weilin can come next time...

2004-07-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

Went to Roxy square to get a hair cut, then off to Parkway. Met Melissa Oh there...yeps. She said that I'm plummer. She's just being nice to put it that way. Haha... Then went to Paragon to see Dr Chua. Ann is back, but I don't think she's half as cute as she previously was. Its so sad that I can't get my braces off.

I'm so excited about tomorrow! Gonna go out with Mandy. Weilin can't go-- she has tuition... so hardworking. Yeah... I'll be meeting her in school. I bet she'll say that I'm fat.

2004-07-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

Yay... just reached S'pore a few hours ago. Was greeted at the arrival hall by Aunt Marg, Jamie and Elaine. Elaine, Lexy and I were talking non-stop. Then Aunt Marg was like, "Hey!!! Don't worry, you guys have 2 weeks to talk. Slow down!" Haha...

I was kinda worried for gran cos she couldn't take the same airlines as us and ended up taking Qantas. Yes... poor gran. She can't really speak English and she was surrounded by so many guai lohs... not that I'm racist or anything. She turned out safe and arrived in one piece though.

I'm starting to appreciate the weather back in Perth. Its so humid here. But oh well, that's the 'S'porean environment' if you like. Its really so different from Perth. Its so bright here and much busier. Perth is so quiet that u can hear yourself breathing.

Anyway... dad 'prepared' the house so nicely. OMG! Simply love him to bits! The flat is pretty cosy. I actually like it a lot.

I have so many things to do during the 2 weeks here, like shopping, eating, hanging out with friends, visiting certain people and also to complete my huge pile of school homework. Oh... I also have to look for a piano to practise on. So many things to do!

2004-06-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

Pissed off with so many people out there... Why am I such a screw up?!

2004-06-18T10:53:00.000+08:00

Book: The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time by Mark Haddon.

**Music concert tonight at 7pm.

I still haven't got a flute tutor... hmm... anyway, I dunno if I shld go for the IS social. For 1 thing, if I don't go, Angie wld be screaming into my ear. But then again, if I go, stuff would happen and I don't wanna suffer the consequences. *confused

2004-06-15T08:10:00.000+08:00

I think that blogging is quite childish. I mean... seriously... You can't get anything out of it. I'd rather spend the time doing other things. HOWEEVER, its hard for me to stop... seeing how childish I actually am.

To Mandy: Have fun in Penang!

Unhappy

2004-06-11T08:06:00.000+08:00

My life is in a mess. That's all I can say about myself... for now anyway.

For one thing,I was supposed to 'sort things out' yesterday during private study. Well, I didn't... I got tempted by the availability of internet access through the school computers. I sure wasted the entire period playing around with nonsense. I didn't even bother to go to my locker to get books. What's wrong with me?! And when I got home, I had dinner. Mum and Lexy went off to some sewing lesson thing, leaving me at home with gran and Ben. Guess what? I only read through a bit of the topic 'breathing' from the Human Biol textbook and then I went to sleep for a while... 'Wake me up in 15 mins' I said to gran. In the end, I slept for around 1 hour. I only got up in the end because Ben kept pestering me. After that... I STILL didn't do any study. Instead, I had a 1 to 1 bitching session with gran. I wasted 1 hour of my time on that. Then I thought that I ought to do some piano prac. All I did was play through the Beethoven sonata a few times and then went on to play a teeny bit of Bach. Mum and Lexy came home after that.

I was in a better mood when they came back. And I felt even better when Lexy gave me my belated prezzie. Its so nice of her. What kind of elder sis am I?! Her birthday was over a long time ago and I haven't even given her a prezzie yet.

My life is obviously such a screw up. But I'm trying to fix it now... gonna go work on my timetable...

2004-06-10T11:06:00.000+08:00

It's been raining these few days. Ahh... a weather to match my mood. Been quite depressed about my results and I don't really have the mood to be doing anything. Yeah... n I have been having problems trying to get to sleep. I think that semster 1 is a good test to show that I am such a slacker, a good for nothing %^@#*^ bitch. I feel sooo bad.

Having private study now. Yes... I should be studying now... but anyway, gonna use this time to sort things out...

2004-06-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

I'm crushed, hurt, angry, disappointed... whatever. My heart aches so bad that I can't even cry. Can someone pls comfort me?

2004-06-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

Went to the city again... didn't buy anything much. Bought a roll of tape cox it was 2 bucks (how lame is that?!), and a pair of dangling star earrings. Yeps aunt marg bought me a pink Roxy purse... so nice of her...

2004-06-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

Book: Wild Swans by Jung Chang

Today was a happy day!!! I'm all smiles. ^_^

I guess anyone could easily pamper me by taking me out to shop... I bought lotsa stuff today cox mum n dad brought me n aunt marg out to the city... Bought
1)Pink Fila jumper
2)Fila trackies
3)This black polyester jumper
4)3 spaghetts
5)Black scarf
6)Gloves

Considering all the things we bought, I think dad's wallet is crying out dearly...

2004-06-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

Book: Chinese Cinderella by Adeline Yen Mah
(I've just read Paper Shadows, Wayson Choy's autobiography. Can someone pls tell me if he's gay?)

The weather is freezing! I need to get proper clothes for the season... *shivers

Ha! I'm soooo happy to stay at home and do stuff. (Quite reluctant for skool to start). Slept like a pig until 10am this morning. Dad tried dragging me out of bed, didn't work though.

Nth much happened today (was quite a boring day). Had to play with Jamie and Ben "The Emperor's New Groove" on PS. Hate it when I keep playing the same stage but die all the same...

2004-05-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEN!!!!**

I HAVE FINISHED EXAMS!!!!!!!

I am sooo gonna fail English. Couldn't do the last question. I did finish it (sort of) but didn't do it properly... Yeps, tts abt it for Eng. Just chatted with Ms Walawski. She said I had some funny answers in my music paper. And the performance was the weakest part of my exam. So sad. *sobx* Aniwae, I did the best I could so it doesn't matter if I don't do well...

Chatted with Mrs May abt Ms Stampalia. Mr Gallo's gonna have a chat with her. Hope he doesn't mention my name!!!! I'm so afraid of confrontation. Yeah, but Ms Stampalia was teaching me properly today... That was kinda strange. Dunno if it was becos she had to write me a report.

Yay... no skooling until Tues! I made a list of what I'm gonna do:
1)Spring cleaning
2)Flute n piano prac
3)Shopping for autumn clothes
4)Shopping for Yen's birthdae prezzie

Sheesh! The freakin' libarian just told me to chuck my bag in the locker instead of bringing it into the library. I HATE MLC libarians!!!!! I really wonder how Mo can be on such good terms with them.

2004-05-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

New word: Hoity toity--thoughtless,giddy behaviour
Mood:Feeling really fat!

Ben was sick today. We didn't go to SV, went to eat dim sum instead. He puked before we left and during the car ride back. That's one issue abt having kids--the puke n all the crap. Also, birth is extremely painful, or so it seems... (y on earth am i talking abt this???)

Tried to study English again but ended up fiddling with the games (again). Better keep that away. Ate lots of fantales and chocs.... told u the diet wld be unsuccessful (*n*)

The laptop's soooo slow, think it got the flu. Aniwae, I will not be able to attend the band concert. Sorry guys! Cos i will only arrive on Tues.

Tomorrow is Yen's birthday. Happy sweet 16! Rock on! Love ya!!!!

2004-05-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

Current temp: 15*C
Mood: Tired, overall contented
New Word: Papillon, French word for butterfly (credit to Al)

2nd entry for the day! Just watched AM3 dad taped from S'pore. I think tt both Diana n Fantasia sang really well. Wished tt Diana won though... Fantasia's voice doesn't really agree with my taste although she sings really well. *sniff... Anyway, will prolly be seeing Diana in the music industry so, no worries!! (maybe jas as well). Simon Cowell is really cute. I like his Vanilla Coke add and his cartoon appearance on the Simpsons... its sooo funny.

My room is fully furnished!!!! Yay! Dad went out today to get me and Al a chest of drawers for each our rooms, and a bookshelf tt will go into my room. Al's stuff will go on that shelf. (cox my room is BIGGER! *smug look)Oh, n he got me a hi-fi set for my b-dae. It's really cool! I can put tt on my bkshelf along with the little chest of drawers(mum's prezzie to muah!)... oh well, shall stop bragging.
**Thanks dad! Love the way you spoil me!

Was studying English just now. Well, 'studying' to be exact. I wanted to check the actual meaning of 'raucnchy' but ended up playing with the games in it. I really need to fight against all odds and freakin' concentrate.

Mum keeps telling Aunt Marg tt I'm fat n now she keeps trying to feel my pot-belly!!! Could really do with a diet n 20 min workout on the treadmill. (will be unsuccessful aniwae, seeing that there's a large store of chocs n chips in the pantry...ooh, the temptation of snacking)

2004-05-28T14:07:00.000+08:00

***3 cheers for me!
I have officially finished the 'construction'of my blog. *satisfaction

Had music paper today. Was ok i guess. But I totally %$@#*^ up on the chords section. Think I'll get 0 for tt part. Can't hear the difference between root position, 1st inversion and 2nd inversion chords. Argh!!!!

Aunt Marg, Jamie n dad arrived todae in the morning at 1am. I was fast asleep at 10.30pm but was woken up by their voices at around 2am. Apparently, Ben n Jamie were screaming heaps while they were playing. Strange tt I didn't hear a thing... (PIG!!!)Had to drag mum out of bed dis morning. She cldn't get up... poor thing, had only 2h of sleep. I think dad was really tired. When I say really, I really mean REALLY. Even when the door to my room was closed, I could hear him snoring away...*heehee

As for this weekend, I hope I'll be able to sneak some time to blog. It helps to de-stress. I certainly can't cope studying English for the entire weekend. Will prolly go to SV to eat Chinese food. Its really nice to go there but the portions of food are sooo huge! (^-* my poor pot-belly)

I actually have lots more to sae... but I hafta go back to my smelly book--Paper Shadows by Wayson Choy. (Really regret choosing it for English)

2004-05-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

Math n music prac over! Yay!

Math was quite easy but more difficult than the usual questions asked. Couldn't do one question though... Music prac was really gd. Am really happy with it cos I did my best *_*

Aunt Marg n Jamie are coming with dad tonight. *sigh* If only Elaine could come... oh well. Having music exam tomorrow, gt study hard for tt one.

I really can't wait to go back to Singapore!!! 2 full weeks! Unbelievable! Stuff I plan to do:
1)Eat
2)Go out with frens
3)Visit Mrs Ee
4)Go back to angelsky n shape up my eyebrows (talk abt obsession...)
5)Buy Jaq her stuff
6)Haircut
7)Contacts (hope dad agrees)

2004-05-26T15:18:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!!!

Seriously... the History exam was really bad. I had a headache halfway through my essays and could not concentrate. But its gone now. I guess I was really stressed up halfway... no shit about that. Haven't even finished the paper. I think I just lost 20% of the marks like that. I didn't noe how to do one of the essay questions. I'm soooo dead.

The human biol exam wasn't as bad as the hist. (considering the fact tt i didn't study much for it the night before)Hope to get 75%...

Mum's coming to pick me and lexy in like 10 mins n I'm supposed to be in the music department practicing the piano. I've got music prac and math exam tomorrow. But oh well, I guess this helps me to de-stress a bit.

I dun think I need to study tonight... I just need to do lotsa piano prac.

**Special thanx to Xuan for helping mi with this blog =p

Aniwae, can't wait to go back to s'pore. The flight has been confirmed.
Depart on Tues (dunno which exact date, i think its 13th of july)
Arrive back here on the 26th (which is lyk 1 dae before skool starts)

I'm freezing... gonna wear sport uniform for exams tmr... maebe. Just hope that it won't be like todae-- 3 degrees!!!!

nerd...

2004-05-25T08:02:00.000+08:00

exams starting tmr. human biol then hist then math then music prac then music then eng. i'm sooo gonna fail eng. n maybe other subjects? maybe... mrs hollingworth said the math paper is really hard. i'm in trouble then. i'm really worried abt the essay questions in human biol. if they're gonna ask mi anything abt hormonal regulation/mitosis/meiosis/childbirth, then i'm really screwed. i just can't digest the whole lot of info.

Sick...

2004-05-21T08:01:00.000+08:00

Having a slight runny nose... its annoying me lots. Plus, exams are starting soon and I can't study properly with my bloddy nose!!!!!!

Sh**, having Ms Tsolakis for 1st period... I can't believe she convinced me to stick on with English cos I noe tt I'm gonna fail the semester exam. Mind u, 4 essays in 3 hours?! Its not enough time. Gonna get tutoring after exam, will speak with mum first.

I'm quite glad I got 80% for human biol, BUT i got 60% for the music lit test. Screw Mr Gallo. He is a complete nut n pain in the ass.

Dad's flying in todae! Really can't wait to see him.

Twitching eyelid...

2004-05-20T08:12:00.000+08:00

Help!!! My eyelid keeps twitching. It's really getting onto my nerves...

2004-05-18T13:13:00.000+08:00

Smilex!